Thank you note to where I am now……

Dear where and how I am just exactly now, (dear reality) I want to welcome you. And apologize for the cold shoulder I’ve turned instead of the warm embrace that I offer now. Honestly I’ve been scared to accept you because you’re a really uncomfortable place for me and it’s habit to dodge and resist…

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The sweet and the sour and fruit on the vine…..

A whole heap of time has swirled past since I last met with you here and I can’t say for sure why except that I’ve opened this laptop often,  just brimming with words, that then bottleneck and quickly subside like a low tide falling. I let my fingers stammer for a little while and then…

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Of bouquets and brambles and bounty 4 you….

About twenty years ago,  when I was in the thick of trying to figure out who am I in the strange and terrible beauty of this life, coming on forty and wondering what of all that I believed was even true enough to haul into the next season – what was real and what would…

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Of weakness, wobbles and Winter’s end…..

I have loved being the strong of me, loved being the older one who hefted bags of soil and pots of living things and pruned and dug and tucked and tweaked and lasted long until the work was done. Loved flinging myself headlong into wild dance with the Muse, until my chest heaved wholehearted and…

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Thank you notes at lap 59…..

59 Grinning thanks for all the bright candles burning sweet heat as I head into the last lap of my fifties. 59 thank you notes: Thank you,  nuance,   for being sanity in unsafe times. Thank you,  Bryan,  for fighting through with me for us. For being the yang to my yin,  the still water to…

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