Of Crayons and Yarn and Lighting Candles in the Dark….

When I was a little girl I used to make books to give my family for Christmas.
It made me feel alive,  this way of putting my love onto paper with crayons and pencil
and binding together simple books with staples or yard to say a fountain of love
and I see you and you have me always on your side.
To share what I felt and saw and hoped and held dear.

I remember feeling that if I put my whole heart into  it, then I’d have nothing to regret.
Then I  could lose the fear that my voice would get snatched and leave my life unsaid.
I remember wanting so hard to say the things,  to give my heart,
to hold hands with both heaven and earth and tug the veil thin
so that the light that I heard,  the music and motion,
might warm some cold places when a chill set in.
I dreamed to paint the beauty that I felt.

It’s taken me a lifetime to become like a child again,
my work-worn hands itching to make words on paper still, but how?
Well this year life made a way,  slowed down,  and threw me a line
and I grabbed hold and started birthing something been long brewing in my heart.
Something I can offer up tangible,  like a fireside built,  where we can gather peaceful
and soak in the warmth and let it serve up some balm
that I hope may nudge breath back into hope gone tired
or burned right down to the nub.

Some of the words and images you’ve met here before,
served up fresh and easy to gift;
others are new offerings carved in the dirt of this challenging year.
I’ve felt them in my parts and prayers,  the hurting hearts all around,
and I sensed it strong to dive deep,  drawing up some singing water to share,
stringing together words and making art
because it seemed the only way I knew to get my hands messy and do something
to help light candles in the dark.

This book-making thing was way harder than I dreamed
and yet Grace showed up and did what she does
when you can’t muster the gumption but you take another tiny step anyway,
and somehow you’re swept jagged into holy current
even as your bum bruises sharp on the rocks,
and you arrive sputtering
with something
to offer up
in your hands

Offering it to you now
with tired and giddy hands
because I really,  really want to tell you something good.

Pre-orders available now on my new website now.


“Love is or it ain’t.
Thin love ain’t no love at all.”
-Toni Morrison

Congratulations to Cathy Burns – we drew your name!
I’ll be sending you an art journal I made.  With a whole lot of love:)
This week I’d like to gift one of my books – it will come right to your door
hopefully the second week of December.
(This thing was born to be a Christmas present:))
Leave a comment and your name goes in the hat!


  1. Elephants Child on November 15, 2020 at 4:23 pm

    I have pre-ordered and really, really look forward to having your precious words on my groaning bookshelves.
    However, I have sent you an message. I think that my email was miskeyed.
    Huge hugs and gratitude. Always.

    • jennifer on November 15, 2020 at 4:48 pm

      I so appreciate your pre-order! How exciting is that:)
      I thank you so much. Sorting out your e-mail thing now.
      All good. Big joy to you, Sue.
      – Jennifer

  2. Julia on November 15, 2020 at 4:26 pm

    Oh wow! Congratulations to you Jennifer. Your heart’s labor has birthed something wonderful.
    Stay safe and well.
    Hugs, Julia

    • jennifer on November 15, 2020 at 4:47 pm

      Thanks so much, Julia:)
      I appreciate! Feels good to my soul:)
      Big joy to you,

  3. Lindsay Vanhove on November 16, 2020 at 2:03 am

    First of all, congrats with publishing this book! I saw it coming really…. After all those years I’m still a big fan. The e-mails are always something to look forward to. I have your small pieces of artwork still on the wall and they make me smile! 🙂 How many years have passed by and how much have changed… yet you’re still one of my fave poets… so YES of course I would love to enter for your giveaway. It would be an honor!

    Sending you so much love…

    And nature-friendly recycled confetti :))


    • jennifer on November 17, 2020 at 4:19 pm

      Lindsay! So good to hear from you again:)
      Feeling your confetti to my bones:)
      Big appreciation,

  4. jeanie on November 16, 2020 at 7:18 am

    It’s just beautiful, Jennifer. And long awaited! Congratulations on doing, creating, finishing and bringing your very beautiful soul to the page. So many of us have long said that “you should write a book!” And you have. Bravo, my friend. Well done!

    • jennifer on November 17, 2020 at 4:18 pm

      Thanks for all the saying, Jeanie – every word has been balm and nudge.
      I appreciate you much,

  5. Jane Brocious on November 16, 2020 at 7:40 am

    I am so happy for you…and for US! Headed over now to preorder your book. Much love and joy to you, Jennifer!

    • jennifer on November 17, 2020 at 4:17 pm

      You can’t possibly know how grateful – how much it means to my heart:)
      A million thank yous:)
      – Jennifer

  6. Cathy B Davis on November 18, 2020 at 8:24 am

    I am so happy you finally took the rope and made your beautiful words & pictures into a book for all see and cherish. Just wish your Mom was still here to see it. She would be sooo proud of you just like we are. Love to you always

    • jennifer on November 29, 2020 at 3:04 pm

      Thanks so much!
      Can’t wait to send you your copy:)
      Love to you big,

  7. Lisa on November 22, 2020 at 5:49 pm

    Well done!

    • jennifer on November 29, 2020 at 3:04 pm

      THANK you for your kind cheer:) I’m excited:)
      Thanks for saying such love over here – I truly appreciate:)

  8. Elephants Child on November 29, 2020 at 10:33 pm

    I was excited to see a new post from you on my reading list. When I tried to open it I was told it didn’t exist (or had been taken down).
    I hope you are ok dear friend.

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