In every wink of light….

So,  yeah,  it hurts.
Real bad.
And there really isn’t anything you can do about it
except for let it be what it is.
Put it into God’s big hands and keep your fingerprints off.
It’s not yours to fancy up or fix.
Just don’t forget to love it.
Love it as a part of your seriously lovable life.
Imperfect and wobbly and juicy and hysterical
and raw and undone and intricate and lovely.

It’s yours.  Be good to it.


Let go the ideal,  the longing for certain and sure.
Let go the push,  the demand,  the rush.
And then love it.
Don’t leave your life untended,
like a dog turned out on a cold lonesome road.
Love it because it’s yours.

And when it gets overwhelmed,  this life of yours,
don’t toss stuff and shallow comfort at it.
It needs your presence.
Just more of you stretched out on the ground with your face to the sky.
Slow down and stay.
It will love you back.

Somehow in the bustle we can lose sight
and step all over it like it’s something underfoot.
Start breathing again.
It’s your life.
Your  life.
Don’t chain it to a Hallmark ideal.

Live generously with yourself.


 “You are worthy of great joy.”
– God
(yeah,  I made that up.  but not really.  i mean,  you can read it,  I believe,
in every leaf and twig and breeze and flower.
In every wink of light.
At least that’s what I think)

Much joy to you,  dear one.
Just so much joy.


  1. Elephant's Child on December 15, 2015 at 1:51 pm

    I needed to read (and view) this today. Megathanks.
    And I hope that joy continues to find a home in your head and heart.

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 10:02 am

      Love and thanks and happy solstice and merry, merry Christmas to you, friend:)
      A warm and merry one:)

  2. Lynn Wilkinson on December 15, 2015 at 11:18 pm

    Oh Jenn… I so needed a this. I think I will read it wvery day for a while. …. And lay back, face up to the sky!!! I am going to miss the delivered zine. A touch of love and Gos in my mailbox every month. You are so wonderful!!!

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 10:01 am

      I’m going to make some zines and they’ll find their way to you, I promise:)
      Just not making the commitment to the monthlies. I have a book begging to get out
      and I’m giving it space and time this year. It’s a season:)
      I know you understand. I love your heart:)

  3. Wanda on December 16, 2015 at 4:20 am

    The keeping our fingerprints off and letting go of our ideas of how things should be can be so hard. I find your words so encouraging Jennifer.

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 10:00 am

      So hard.
      Grateful for the grace that comes when we lean in,
      palms up:)
      Big joy to you and yours, Wanda:)

  4. Julia on December 16, 2015 at 6:54 am

    This is so true…Sometimes I have to step out of myself to see the spiritual soul beside the self and know that God is there loving and guiding. I’m here by the grace of God and I need to fuel my soul with the joy that is offered me and put aside my own agenda as how things should be. So hard to do sometimes…
    Love and Peace to you sweet Jennifer.

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:59 am

      Putting aside our own agenda…..such a relief when I remember to do that!
      To lose the control:) It’s a lifelong re-learning and un-learning, isn’t it.
      Grateful for the grace along the way.
      Thanks for being a friend, Julia:)

  5. leslie on December 16, 2015 at 7:39 am

    Standing in the midst with you, eyes peeled for those flickers of light and joy.

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:58 am

      I love the way you stand and watch, friend:)
      Big joy to you… a thrill of hope:)

  6. jeanie on December 16, 2015 at 8:03 am

    I needed this post today, Jennifer. I’m having some real lung issues right now and they are always tougher to deal with at Christmas when there is so much to do and I want it done — well, the way I want it done, not slacking! And guilty because my lungs and back guided me to staying away from Rick’s trade show when he really needs help but I didn’t feel I could be good help. Let it go, right? Maybe not LOVE it but at least accept the parts of my body that don’t work so well for what they are — and be grateful they still work a little? Well, I’ll TRY to love it. But that’s a tough order, my friend!

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:57 am

      Healing love and light to you and your lungs, friend.
      And extraordinary rest that defies your circumstances.
      I appreciate so much your resilience and passion.
      A gentle Christmas to you and yours,

  7. Susan on December 16, 2015 at 11:02 am

    Like the others, this is a perfect post for me today. It speaks to the reverence that I often feel and then lose, and it speaks–so perfectly–of the kindness I need to remember when caring for the best part of me, the invisible. Listening to our bodies at this time of year seems especially important to me. It is the time when the veil between worlds is thin and there is magic in the light coming though the dark. We only have to see it. Thank you Jennifer!

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:56 am

      feel and then lose….isn’t that the way it is!
      I think that’s why we so much need each other in the madness of this world.
      Because one of us is always having that moment and can shout over to the rest,
      “remember!”. Community. Tribe. It’s a beautiful thing.
      Love and lift to you, dear Susan,

  8. Kathryn on December 16, 2015 at 7:00 pm

    Oh my, Jennifer. This rocked me to my core. I think I’m speechless…escept to say it’s beautiful! Thank you! I want to read and reread this.

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:53 am

      I love how we get “rocked” by the same thing over and over again:)
      Soul sister:) You are a light and a joy to me….thank you.

  9. gotham girl on December 17, 2015 at 7:44 am

    I totally believe…”in every leaf and twig and breeze and flower.
    In every wink of light.”

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:53 am

      I love the way you let your heart see:)
      Thanks for being such a joy and light to me,

  10. Cathy on December 18, 2015 at 7:48 am

    Beautiful as always Jenny! We all need to be thankful that we are alive and still in our earthly bodies to make the best of what is giving to us. Thanks to our family and friends who help us along the way to what is important in our lives.
    Love to you

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:52 am

      Love and hugs across the miles, dear cousin:)
      I remember so fondly those Christmas eve gatherings long ago….it was
      finally Christmas when you guys came over:)
      Big hugs and love,

  11. Susan on December 18, 2015 at 9:24 am

    “Don’t leave your life untended” … oh, man! I love how you give such good advice in your sweet, quirky, awesomely real way. You do wonderful goodness for all of us who are lucky enough to hook up with your heart and your words.

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:51 am

      Thanks for your always encouraging way, Susan:)
      It means more to me than I know how to say.
      Wishing you big glad goodness in the days and year to come,

  12. Kimber Britner on December 18, 2015 at 10:29 am

    I heartily agree with your “made up” (but not really) interpretation of God’s big heart. The word I keep hearing for 2016 is giddy. I am wide open to remember and relearn all of my little girl original giddiness! That means Joy from the inside out despite circumstances or the outdated narratives blasting like a megaphone. Thanks for this goody!

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:50 am

      Giddy:) I like that:)
      Wishing you a giddy dance to your step, a giddy twinkle in your talk,
      and a giddy hope that just won’t quit:)
      Love and merry-ness,

  13. Donna on December 19, 2015 at 4:32 pm

    Such beautiful words…a gift to me.

    ‘It’s your life.
    Your life.
    Don’t chain it to a Hallmark ideal.’

    Oh I breathe slowly into these words…thank you for reminding me my friend! Much joy and love to you….

    • jennifer on December 24, 2015 at 9:49 am

      Breathing them in with you today, dear Donna, with a very large wish
      for much joy and rest to you in the days and year to come.
      Big love, Jen

  14. Barbara on December 29, 2015 at 10:59 pm

    Put it into God’s hands and live generously. Perfect! Thank you, Jennifer!

    • jennifer on December 31, 2015 at 8:23 pm

      Thanks, dear Barbara.
      Big love and prayers for your mom.
      May this next year be the sweetest so far for you both.

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