Of facts and fountains…..

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So what if I am too tired,
too busy,  too foggy,  too muddled by details
that keep dribbling over the edge of my lists and days
like an overstuffed laundry hamper spilling onto floors that I wish
I could clear and clean and freeze that way.

And what if the nights aren’t strong enough to hold me at rest,
if the mornings smack hard of hurry and go
and if the money that I feel I must need won’t happen unless
I go faster and harder and better and more?
What if everything is just exactly as harsh and unrelenting
and jagged and disappointing as it sometimes seems.
Where do I go with that thought?

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Inside,  to the center of the place where I only ever need to be,
where dwells a  living Love who whispers truth
over all these facts pretending to be real,
over the barbed wire thinking that I sometimes painful feel
and here my heart collapses grateful into the friendly,  worn,  overstuffed chair
of arms that hold me firm inside a living rest
like a fountain pulled around me tender,
making dry bones live again.

I can rethink the messy stuff of living….it just is what it is.
And I’m free to love it all and thrive
just exactly as I am
now.

I love peace.

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“Don’t believe everything you think.”
-Byron Katie

26 Comments

  1. Elephant's Child on April 19, 2015 at 3:26 pm

    Yes.
    And you have more than a few friends who would happily snuggle into those overstuffed chairs of the mind with you. Revelling and relishing the now. The enough. The peace.

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:44 am

      The now. The enough. The peace.
      I love how you write, friend:)
      Thank you,
      Jennifer

  2. Julia on April 19, 2015 at 5:06 pm

    Spring is such a busy time for me too…. So often I feel like that and I have to remind myself just be in the now because that’s all I have, really. When I remind myself that He’s there waiting to care for me.
    The moment moves forward and I have to keep up and not jump to the future or lag behind in the past. The love is in the right now, forever in the right now.

    Sweet Spring my friend.
    Hugs.
    JB

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:46 am

      Yes, now we are in good care:)
      It’s all we really have.
      Thank you for jumping in and sharing your
      wisdom, friend:)
      -Jennifer

  3. Lady Fi on April 19, 2015 at 10:10 pm

    You constantly inspire and motivate with your beautiful posts. Thank you.

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:46 am

      I’m so grateful to hear, friend….thank you:)
      It is likewise, indeed.
      -Jennifer

  4. Traveling Rockhopper on April 20, 2015 at 2:04 am

    nice pictures! i love spring, with thousands flowers everywhere 🙂

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:47 am

      Thanks for stopping by….I look forward to dropping
      by and visiting you sometime.
      -Jennifer

  5. Sue on April 20, 2015 at 5:28 am

    We all need times to retreat and take it slow. Take a deep breath! Loving the photos here, Spring is a great time for renewal!

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:48 am

      Thanks Sue……longing for that kind of time
      and trusting it’ll come just exactly when it does:)
      -Jennifer

  6. Jane on April 20, 2015 at 7:37 am

    You remind me, dear Child, to “go out of my mind and come to my senses,” and I love you for it!

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:49 am

      “go out of my mind and come to my senses”
      ….Wow! I love that, Jane.
      Thanks for that nugget and for being such
      an encouragement. You are so dear to me:)
      -Jennifer

  7. gotham girl on April 20, 2015 at 10:34 am

    Barbed wire thinking…i so love your imagination! And yes…the messy stuff of living….it truly is…just what it is. Like Sue says above…Take deep breaths!

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:50 am

      Thanks for being such a light, friend:)
      I appreciate you more than I can say,
      Jennifer

  8. Donna on April 20, 2015 at 11:51 am

    A perfect ending quote I am embracing….’over the barbed wire thinking that I sometimes painful feel’…we do sometimes make our own pain. I too am finding tat peace and solace and saying…today I am resting and enjoying…today the hard work will be to do nothing.

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:52 am

      today the hard work will be to do nothing.
      that’s good. today, for me, the hard work will be
      to stay in a place of rest (in my heart) even while I’m working
      hard. Freedom in the way’s we’re thinking – yay:)
      thanks for dropping by, Donna,
      Jennifer

  9. Kathy on April 20, 2015 at 3:54 pm

    Oh Jennifer, it’s as if we January girls are thinking from one mind. In my stress, I have been repeatedly reminding myself that I shouldn’t believe my perception, but go into my light, my heart, my soul, my quiet space…and be. Thank you for sharing your beauty. You say it all better than I ever could

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:52 am

      I love your process and how you share it so bold
      and in color:)
      thank you, friend,
      Jennifer

  10. jeanie on April 22, 2015 at 7:08 am

    OK, don’t laugh at me for this but I think I’m going to print this one out and stick it in my funeral service/memorial file. It so captures exactly how I feel, how I think, how I have lived my life. Right now I feel as though I live more often in that overstuffed chair, having left some of the financial and stressful worries behind me when I left my work. It is thoughts like this that got me through the darkest days and perhaps will someday get me through more dark days. Not too soon, I hope! Splendid.

    • Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:53 am

      I love that…..grinning wide with joy over these words:):):)
      I love the way you live and think, friend;
      thanks for sharing,
      Jennifer

  11. susan troccolo on April 23, 2015 at 11:07 am

    “And what if the nights aren’t strong enough to hold me at rest,
    if the mornings smack hard of hurry and go”….I’m sending this off to a friend today and putting it on my computer. I don’t know if you have been told this…probably you have….but you have Mary Oliver in you. The reason I say that is that you are not all sunshine and daffodils. the lightness of your love for this world comes from knowing all the dark and not being afraid to speak it out loud. If you have a book of poetry, put me first in line. (Don’t you love Byron Katie?) What a godsend to us all.

  12. Jennifer Richardson on April 24, 2015 at 5:54 am

    (Mary Oliver…..swoon)
    Thanks for your bright encouragement and the lilt and voice
    in your beautiful words….such a gift to me. THANK you:)
    Keep writing and pouring out, friend,
    Jennifer

  13. Kimber Britner on April 24, 2015 at 8:08 am

    Such a yummy spot of realization that I have been getting too. The lack is an illusion in the grandness of things.xoxo

  14. Susan on April 24, 2015 at 9:33 am

    Yes, ma’am … this life, it is what it is and aren’t we lucky for it? I feel so lucky, also, to have you in my world.

  15. Barbara on April 26, 2015 at 9:55 pm

    Lord have mercy, Jennifer…how do you always manage to put into words exactly how I’m feeling? “and if the money that I feel I must need won’t happen unless
    I go faster and harder and better and more?” Your words have a way of acknowledging and helping me along to that place of peace. I hope we can both find it and stay there even while all of those details keep dribbling over the edges of our to-do lists. Sending hugs!

  16. Kathryn on May 15, 2015 at 2:02 pm

    wow, your words really spoke deeply to me!! I am going to bookmark this one and reread a few more times!!

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