waterbreak winter…

I’ll remember this winter
when I’m old  I believe,
will remember the changing tide and slow receding
of the rattle and roar of my own striving,
as  surrender threw open some windows
to waves I never saw coming
and in a feeling kind of way I heard it,
the deep down sound of my water breaking
and the building rumble of a tugging squeeze
giving birth to changing season in me

It’s been a soft time in a hard place
and I’m riding the  contractions,
sometimes scary fierce and others playful wild
and resting when the swells are glassy,
trusting the Love that holds the  sea,
and yielding vulnerable as it’s shifting me.


And I won’t shut myself to winter till she’s done,
won’t shoo and hurry her dormant way,
won’t despise it how she slows and stills
until her work is yes in me.

I’ll remember this one when I’m old,
and smile grateful tears for the pressure that’s making
some prints on my life
that I wouldn’t have wanted to miss.
Deeper in love with the oceans that hold me,
I’m coming alive to my heart.


“The woman had laughed the hard times
into wine.”
-Ann Voskamp

Hey friend,  I wrestled a bit over this….whether to just post these images and write down some sweet stuff about winter and how it’s still pretty
and almost over and just hang on
whether to dive into the deep end of what I’ve been living
and splash around and try to put together words that make sense of it.
I dove.
Hope it doesn’t give you a headache:)


  1. Mary on February 17, 2014 at 12:54 pm

    “I’ll remember this one when I’m old, and smile grateful tears for the pressure that’s making some prints on my life that I wouldn’t have wanted to miss. Deeper in love with the oceans that hold me, I’m coming alive to my heart.”

    These words of yours…it does takes pressure doesn’t it…sometimes painful pressure…but it ‘s like pressing out the poison to make room…

    Thank you for sharing your heart, your journey! We need to know we are not alone.

    Much grace and love to you!

  2. Julia Bourque on February 17, 2014 at 1:23 pm

    Jennifer, I think that this is what the mean about becoming mature. It’s like a right of passage that is so challanging and it’s better to embrace it than to curse it. It marks us on the way and makes us stronger. I’ve had many such winters and summers that I wanted to end but you are so wise in accepting and flowing with the current until it takes you where you are supposed to be.

    Thanks for your sweet comment on my blog. You always make me smile.

  3. Elephant's Child on February 17, 2014 at 2:53 pm

    I am so in favour of your dive. Which gave us the gorgeous images, and the even more gorgeous snippets of you. Thank you.

  4. Judy Hartman on February 17, 2014 at 10:06 pm

    Coming alive to your heart…
    This piece is a revelation of a journey, and I hope so much that you are on your way to a richer and better place, Jennifer. Your words and photographs are so poetic and insightful. I am pulling for you as you go through this transition, whatever it may be.

  5. Lynn Wilkinson on February 18, 2014 at 12:03 am

    So very glad you dove in!!! It is the truth!
    This has been an unusual winter, ups and downs…
    long goodbyes after short hello and how are you doings?
    But I, too, wouldn’t have wanted to miss this season.
    I look forward to fall and winter every spring and summer…
    and I hate it when I rush through a season, for whatever reason.
    Your analogy was perfect.

  6. Barbara on February 18, 2014 at 2:42 am

    Jennifer, this has been a tough year for me all around, and you help me see that it’s just part of a Whole and there’s a Plan. That quote is priceless. Thank you!

  7. Bren on February 18, 2014 at 9:00 am

    I’m so taken with both the power images and the powerful imagery and the power of your truth, cause it’s my truth too

  8. Maryse on February 18, 2014 at 9:52 am

    Diving is the way, my friend. Going for rawness and truth; that’s what I love about your work. Yes, life is a “hard place” but we can have a “soft time” when we let ourselves go deeper and deeper in love, which you do here over and over. I’m glad I’m here to witness it. ♥

  9. Michele Bergh on February 18, 2014 at 11:09 am

    Such a beautiful reminder to appreciate what we have and not wish it away. Thank you for your sweet thoughts.

  10. kathryn on February 18, 2014 at 4:16 pm

    life is not just about all the beautiful photos…it’s good to share your amazing words too! I know I love reading them and then re-reading them a few more times!!

  11. Nancy on February 18, 2014 at 5:29 pm

    All I could think about while reading this was the gift of light and life that will emerge after the labor pains have done there job. I so appreciate your raw honesty because it inspires me to struggle deep and be authentic….We have all been in labor at one time or another but it’s only the courageous ones that dare see the gift at the end of the struggle….Hugs my friend…

  12. Susan on February 18, 2014 at 8:43 pm

    Not a headache but, ohmylord, you make my heart ache with your honest, singing, truths that you can’t help but share because you know how important it all is … you have no option but to dive in and come up splashing, leaping & laughing even when the winter is long and times are tough your loving spirit will survive and we are all so lucky for it.

  13. kamana on February 19, 2014 at 12:17 am

    so much snow!

  14. Lynn on February 19, 2014 at 5:12 am

    Headache? Oh no! Quite the contrary. Sharing seems to have a way of easing pain. That of the giver and receiver. Releasing painful pressure for one and allowing the other to feel not quite so alone in this big world as they are there to catch whatever words fall their way. Ripples. Right?

  15. suz on February 19, 2014 at 8:21 am

    bah humbug……..I am so done with this winter
    yesterday it was 47! andwhile walking in the parking lot of our local supermarket….
    I HEARD BIRDS SINGING!!!!! I almost fainted from joy…pure joy!!!
    I inhaled deeply…..yea that’s right……I inhaled!
    love to you wonder lady

  16. jeanie on February 19, 2014 at 5:22 pm

    Well, this is gorgeous. Wise words I daresay we all should heed, although to be honest, while I will remember this winter and her challenges and lessons for years to come, I will not be sorry to see her go and I will long for the return of birds, grass, flowers and spring. We did get a bit of sun today — and oh! How it helped!

    No, this post didn’t give me a headache! It gave me good food for thought. And oh — your photos are something to treasure here!

  17. gotham girl on February 20, 2014 at 8:57 pm

    Love, love, love that first one!

  18. S. Etole on February 21, 2014 at 2:16 pm

    Stilled by your laboring and waiting and the beauty you share in the process.

  19. Amanda Fall on February 22, 2014 at 10:41 pm

    Beloved Jen, coming from my own waterbreak winter, I am teary-eyed grateful to soak up the love and Love here. Thank you for letting your honest heart spill onto the screen, because you remind me: we are never alone.

    I linked you in my blog post today: http://www.persistentgreen.com/2014/02/gather-good.html

  20. dulcy on February 23, 2014 at 8:48 am

    I don’t know….. for me it’s been partly an obsession with trying to keep a little feral kitty warm and safe (not easy as it’s completely wild), while dealing with raccoons in the garage and digging into the screened porch…. but….It has been beautiful, and I always love winter. It’s the temps that have been so hard. Today I see snowdrops coming up outside, and that makes me happy!

  21. Meg Evans on February 23, 2014 at 1:08 pm

    A timely reminder — when we start wishing away the winter (or anything else), it takes away from our ability to appreciate and learn from what is happening in the moment, even after the winter is over. Then the spring is too rainy, the summer too hot, the autumn too windy or cloudy, and life gets reduced to petty complaining.

    This year I’ve resolved to develop a better attitude and show more kindness and positivity by discovering and commenting on a new positive blog each day, while keeping a list on my own blog. Ripplespeak is my discovery for today, and I appreciate all the time and “diving” that went into composing its entries!

  22. Lee Ann on February 23, 2014 at 10:24 pm

    “trusting the love that holds the sea”….oh how I love that phrase you penned Jennifer. Seeing the image of that tulip laying on the snow grabbed my attention immediately.. First of all it’s such a beautiful image and secondly there is some love and mystery about it that spoke to me. So thank you for sharing your eye’s heart through images with us along with your heart in song though your words.

    Oh and however did your pansies continue to grow with snow or was that an image from the beginning of winter?

    Please stop by and see me at my blog if you have time. I finally put up another post. I am very slow these days at getting them posted.

    Love and Hugs,
    Lee Ann

  23. Connie Smiley on February 25, 2014 at 9:02 pm

    When you dive, Jennifer, it’s always a 10.0.

  24. Donna on March 14, 2014 at 11:28 am

    Love this last shot and the pot you painted with my fav pansies…your powerful words are gut wrenching…I hope that as winter let’s go, spring will gently glide in to soothe you Jennifer.

  25. Donna on March 14, 2014 at 11:28 am

    Love this last shot and the pot you painted with my fav pansies…your powerful words are gut wrenching…I hope that as winter let’s go, spring will gently glide in to soothe you Jennifer.

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