tired or true….
What if
our tiredness is a picture of our true-ness,
our wellness, a story of our you-ness?
Want to join me in a ponder?
“When I repress my emotions,
my stomach keeps score….”
-John Powell
( a gross oversimplification, of course
……..always, always there are exceptions
and complexities;
but I’m wondering if more of our fatigue and un-wellness
than we realize
is brought on by being untrue to ourselves,
by taking responsibility for that which isn’t our heaviness to carry
and equally by not owning choices
that are our very birthright)
I hope not. I really, really hope not. My fatigue (body and mind) is often overwhelming. Sometimes denial (not just a river in Egypt) is the only thing which keeps me putting one wobbly foot in front of the other. And there is always beauty on the road ahead – which is sufficient incentive to keep on keeping on.
Yes I agree that repressed emotions are dangerous. They have a tendency to fester. Instead I try and acknowledge them, accept them and look ahead.
Meditation and learning is helping with this, because yes, my tummy would keep score. Now I allow a moment to acknowledge my anxiety, breathe, and let it go….at least I am trying anyway! Best to you, Jennifer
How can we not be tired when we hold so much inside, it’s exhausting, especially as we grow older…we hold onto so much Jesus did not mean for us to carry…each time I release something…each step in becoming /knowing I am totally loved in the moment without having to be perfect or pretend I am a lightness appears. There is a reason Jesus says his yoke is easy and his burden light. We were not created to carry the weight we do.
And…a spring in our step appears(childlike) as we let it go…
I so believe that our three selves, physical, spiritual, and emotional, are so tied together and when one is out of balance it certainly affects the other two which I believe is exactly why Jesus said so much about not carrying burdens around that are His to carry. Sometimes being authentic is hard but when you realize the consequences of not being who He created us to be it’s worth the struggle…Great post today sweet girl…confirmation of some thoughts…..
I think we need to look after ourselves as well of others to avoid fatigue…
Hi jennifer,
For me I feel that the un-wellness comes when some unwanted desires are pushed at me.
I want to fix everyone’s problems but it comes from a place within me. It is born in my giving heart. It feels good to displace myself to make someone feel good. It’s when I feel pushed or expected to serve that I feel unwell, taken advantage of and resentment is born.
I think it about the same thing that John Powell is talking about.
My household has been a busy one this week and I’m running behind in visiting my blogging friends.
Hugs,
JB
“…that which isn’t our heaviness to carry”–oh, Jennifer, how you always gasp me. This is truth for me. How I am working to surrender (which really requires less WORKING and more FLOWING)–to release my white-knuckle grip and let Love carry the world . . . and remembering it was never, never my job in the first place . . . and that I never really was anyway, only struggling to think so, and feeling like a failure when I couldn’t–when really, we are all being carried, all the time, capably, abundantly, tenderly.
I love you, beautiful one. Thank you for this and for all you are.
I’m sure it is!
I have been suffering from ills due to this very thing…it has taken me a long hard time to finally realize this and stop the sabotage as well.
I have been suffering from ills due to this very thing…it has taken me a long hard time to finally realize this and stop the sabotage as well.
I do think stress plays a huge part in making things worse and learning to handle it all in a relatively productive way is critical to enhancing the wellness But sometimes we have to be very true to admit we are very tired or very sick. Pushing through it doesn’t always work. Trust me, I know.
You are a wonder with your words that come straight from your heart and spirit. I must schedule an appointment with you so you can tell me how to ‘let go’ of stressful thinking (mostly about family matters). I still tread softly around certain family members, not sharing what’s on my heart in fear of hurting or offending them. But until then, I’m going to go outside to twirl and star-gaze!