truth in the tremble….


There’s been a cold wind blowing,
a shivery ache
that gnaws through some hope
and teases  my heart why don’t you close up
tight like a fist and numb that pain down.

But I don’t want to miss even love wrapped in sorrow
in this messy business of living
and walk around like a woman without hope
because that would be a lie
and living true is where the real magic swirls
miracles and mystery
like chunks of lime
and honey in my tea.


So I open wide,
stretching awake to the sweetest dream
as I drop down into the delicious presence
of heaven breathing right inside my belly
and my mind sits down hard so my heart can soar
as I put my head down on the floor
and let

~it isn’t what it seems,
this in-between,
even when it frays like rope in weather;
becoming can be a jumble,
sometimes an uphill dribble
so lean in,
open wide
and let hope sing.




This post is about some mama-longing in my heart
that feels like winter-weary waiting
for the Spring.
Are you in a place like that,  too?
Hope and patience,  baby.
The brightest blooms
have a “suddenly” way about them.

“You are the fire that burns out my cold
you’re the warm light in this winter-weary soul…”

-just a song i’m singing


  1. rachel awes on February 25, 2013 at 12:23 pm

    i LOVE a suddenly way!!!
    + i LONG for spring!
    gorgeous bloom photos, otterly dear!

  2. suz on February 25, 2013 at 4:32 pm

    oh yes, I know this feeling
    and yes, again…we hang onto hope don’t we
    I tell this to my daughter all the time
    ..though she doubts
    and I understand this….but this is the life that God has given us
    and each day is to be lived in glory
    sometimes through veils of tears and sadness
    How lucky we are to have faith Jennifer
    …and thank you for your kind words of understanding

  3. Julia Bourque on February 25, 2013 at 6:46 pm

    Your words Jennifer, seems to fit in my heart that has shrivelled from the pain of loving without measure. Motherly love is always filled with hope and healing expectations, full of forgiveness and prayers.
    Those pains that I try to hide in the crevices, comes out like a bud through the hard bark, piercing through and just when I feel the sting of reality, I notice the fragile blossom emerging. Hope and faith are holding hands and I breath deep from within and I thank you for coaxing what I never bother to express. I pull the strings and untie the bow and I can see what a present you are to me my friend.

    Keep the fire of hope burning.


  4. Suzanne McRae on February 25, 2013 at 7:48 pm

    Lovely words Jennifer. I also am feeling weary with winter… looking every day for little hints that spring is around the corner yet feeling like it’s still a few months away. The days are growing longer and brighter everyday but yet my body, my soul misses those warm sun-filled days. Your photos are also very spectacular. xo

  5. Barbara on February 25, 2013 at 8:59 pm

    Your posts always inspire me with such hope and passion and make me feel I really am strong. Thank you! I am in a place like that, although it’s not because of my kids. (Can’t blame them this time! lol) Hope you have a beautiful week!

  6. Liz on February 25, 2013 at 10:49 pm

    I ****needed**** this

    thank you, Jen…


  7. rainfield on February 25, 2013 at 10:55 pm

    Let hope sings.

    Let the days sing.

    Let the sun sings.

    And we’ll sing.

  8. Michele Bergh on February 26, 2013 at 12:15 am

    Your photos make me crave a touch of spring! The winter has grown weary to me and I long for brighter, more colorful days. Soon 🙂

  9. Lindsay on February 26, 2013 at 2:37 am

    These words are warming my mama-heart too… just a couple of months and we’re almost there. I wonder how your song sounds like… 🙂

    Many hugs,

  10. Elephant's Child on February 26, 2013 at 3:17 am

    Such a beautiful, beautiful post. Mega thanks.

  11. Kathy on February 26, 2013 at 5:41 am

    Yes, Jennifer, i feel this way right now. It’s been cold outside but it’s my insides and my heart that have struggled with the chill and fear…and over the top anxiety. I am hanging onto my Word Trust, like a lifeline. Faith and patience…faith and patience…and Trust. Love to you, dear sweet friend. Hold on. Kathy

  12. Bren on February 26, 2013 at 7:06 am

    Poignant and beautiful, sorrow wrapped in hope.

  13. Deborah on February 26, 2013 at 7:29 am

    Such beautiful words. Full of hope.

  14. Jan on February 26, 2013 at 11:49 am

    I’m glad I have subscribed to your blog, you share interesting thoughtful words and beautiful photos. Personally, I enjoy the winter. But I also enjoy the spring, summer and autumn. It’s all good.

  15. Connie Smiley on February 26, 2013 at 2:12 pm

    Such beauty, Jen! There’s a prayer in my heart for you for something amazing.

  16. Barbara Koob on February 26, 2013 at 2:45 pm

    Sweet blooms of beauty singing in my soul this cold rainy feburary. Thank you for brightening up my day and bringing the sonshine. xoxo

  17. S. Etole on February 26, 2013 at 6:03 pm

    Such hope-filled and beautiful photos to remind us of the unseen before the spring arrives.

  18. Lynn Fisher on February 27, 2013 at 1:20 pm

    …and a beautiful song it is. Lovely words and photos. I was just telling someone today , Jennifer, that I don’t think that I will get through the rest of this winter with regular bouquets of tulips…it’s spring…somewhere!

  19. Lynn Fisher on February 27, 2013 at 1:20 pm

    Oh, are you on Flickr?

  20. kathryn on February 28, 2013 at 12:16 pm

    February is the worst month of the year when you live in the cold….that’s why i moved to California!! Hang in there…it’s almost spring…your photos are a wonderful reminder of that!!!

  21. ELK on February 28, 2013 at 4:09 pm

    always a joy to stop in the garden here …. feeling the love !

  22. Sandra L. on February 28, 2013 at 5:24 pm

    I’ve been struggling to hold onto hope lately. It seems like spring will *never* come…though I see sprouts coming up near my workplace. My husband tells me every year “it’s inevitable. It HAS TO come.” The sprouts are in a holding pattern. I feel like I am, too.

  23. Amanda Fall on February 28, 2013 at 7:22 pm

    Oh sweet Jen, your truthful trembling brings ME hope. Thank you for your tender heart & eyes. Thank you for letting us see.

  24. Anne Camblin on February 28, 2013 at 8:56 pm

    I am sharing this with a precious teenager who also needs to hear your true words of hope. It’s not just mama-hearts that tremble with longing.
    Thank you again for sharing yourself. You are a gift!

  25. Just Be Real on March 1, 2013 at 6:48 am

    Jen, as always thank you. this brightens a darkness inside me right now.

  26. Lynn on March 1, 2013 at 1:16 pm

    Yes. Ican relate completely.

  27. Wanda on March 1, 2013 at 10:44 pm

    You always have the most vivid pictures Jennifer. Love does come wrapped in sorrow at times and it’s tempting to close up. But it only robs one of enjoying all that this life & love have to offer.

  28. jeanie on March 3, 2013 at 10:22 am

    I may just have to print this one out and read it every day to remind me. Your space is always beautiful and thoughtful and sometimes it hits its target in a way you may never have expected. Your flower photos DO fill me with hope!

  29. Maggie Mallard on March 7, 2013 at 4:58 am

    Good Morning my dear friend
    It has been a long night with no sleep so finally at 5am Iturned on my light to read yor beautiful card you wrote me. It always eases my restless mind that has deprived me of sleep.
    Your words are so touching and speak to si many of us. WISH I could help you like you help me. Your always in my heart and prayers.
    Sending you love and lots of hugs.

  30. Marjie Kemper on March 7, 2013 at 12:39 pm

    Oh how I love coming over here… another beautiful message today, hon. And such gorgeous photos. Wishing you a wonderful day!

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