dear heart of mine,

Dear heart of mine,

    I’m writing to you…..yes,  you
~especially that part of you I’ve draped over the line
suspended in time
dangling and exposed
like the rows of diapers I used to hang
from rough wooden clothespins
while my sweetests
clamored happily in the grass below.

Yeah,  the wildly stretched part
where I’m deep marked and lumpy around the scars,
not at all smooth
and, I used to think,
kind of ugly,
squishy,
an embarrassing,  easy to dismiss sort of heart,
worn too far out on my sleeve
(cover that thing up,  for crying out loud).

Or so I judged.

Today I see you through some clearly different eyes
and I’m done with the harsh hating
of your soft and fragile sides,
the parts that break easy and thump loud with wound
because they love so effing hard.

And I’m fiercely grateful
and glad to call you mine.
So stretch out free and easy,
make yourself at home
because,
you want a shock,  heart of mine?

I think you’re beautiful.

“Don’t give me fountains,  I need waterfalls.  And when I cry my tears will fill an ocean.
The pain of love I’ll accept it all as long as you’ll join me in that emotion.
Cause half of lovin’ is no fun,  give it all,  give it all to me.
I can stand it.  I am strong that way.”
-Carly Simon

43 Comments

  1. Kathy on February 22, 2012 at 6:40 pm

    Love to you, Jennifer, from my strong heart to yours. Gosh, I have missed you and your writing. K

  2. Nancy on February 22, 2012 at 7:43 pm

    I love the way you are appreciating and honoring your sweet heart…..sometimes it may be fragile and sometimes it may be strong but yours is beautiful all the time…..You are always encouraging us to be more and love more and you fill us with words to ponder more…

    Love you friend…

  3. Julia Of Petals and Wool on February 22, 2012 at 7:51 pm

    Jennifer, I’m so glad that you are at that place in your life where you can love yourself in gratefulness for just the way you are. It’s a great place to be. So many never reach that place and wish to be someone else or are always trying to impress, living a lie.
    I love how you bear your heart and make yourself vulnerable. Love is the greatest gift we can give to ourselves and others. I love your way with words, so beautiful.

    Hugs. JB

  4. Mary on February 22, 2012 at 8:27 pm

    Jennifer, how I love your big, open, real, vulnerable, beautiful, growing, strong, grateful heart!!!

  5. JBR on February 23, 2012 at 4:44 am

    WoW Jen. I especially love this line: “So stretch out free and easy,”

    Blessings to you my friend.

  6. rachel awes on February 23, 2012 at 5:21 am

    fiercely grateful for you, jennifer.
    much love from my bumpy self. xoxox

  7. Lynn on February 23, 2012 at 6:20 am

    pulling. breathtakingly pulling.

  8. Christie on February 23, 2012 at 9:03 am

    Oh, how I love this. I am also seeing my heart through different eyes, you have captured the emotions so eloquently.
    When I read this:
    “And I’m fiercely grateful
    and glad to call you mine.
    So stretch out free and easy,
    make yourself at home
    because,
    you want a shock, heart of mine?
    I think you’re beautiful.”
    I teared up. Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful piece.

  9. Connie Smiley on February 23, 2012 at 10:28 am

    Jennifer, so glad you share that beautiful heart of yours with us.

  10. leslie on February 23, 2012 at 11:06 am

    such a lovely choice of image and word… the delicate and beautiful blooms of spring to herald the beauty of your vulnerable heart.

  11. Anita on February 23, 2012 at 1:13 pm

    Jennifer,

    Your writing has the most amazing way of stirring my soul. You are so gifted, and so beautiful.

    More beautiful every day!

    xo, Anita

  12. Jess Morrow on February 23, 2012 at 1:23 pm

    I loved this–of course, as I always do your poetry. It just works so well. And, as a side-note, LOVE the Carly Simon quote. Like we were talking about … you’re a whisperer, too. Don’t stop writing these lovely poetic entries. They are fantastic.

  13. Marcie on February 23, 2012 at 2:01 pm

    Oh..I love those Carly Simon lyrics. How you describe your journey towards self-acceptance and love is beautiful!

  14. Louise G on February 23, 2012 at 6:38 pm

    I love your
    heart
    fiercely beating
    a tattoo
    of life
    lived in the passion
    of being
    true to no one
    but itself.

    It’s the best way for a heart to be.

    Your heart is beautiful and I am beautiful in my heart for you.

  15. jeanie on February 23, 2012 at 7:15 pm

    Your heart is so beautiful indeed and I’m so very grateful that you share so much of it with us. It is a gift we find each time we visit.

  16. lisleman on February 23, 2012 at 7:31 pm

    A heart pumping out love. Your words create great images.
    (oh the first pic sorta makes me want to sneeze. I know it’s probably just me)

  17. Barbara on February 23, 2012 at 9:34 pm

    I love your heart, too! If all of us had hearts as large and giving as yours, the world would be a much beautiful, more peaceful place! I’m glad you have learned to appreciate it and love it, too!

  18. Marjie Kemper on February 24, 2012 at 9:29 am

    A treasure of words followed by gorgeous hand-painted art! What a lovely start to my morning…. thank you.

  19. Cousin Cathy on February 24, 2012 at 2:23 pm

    Your words are such a nice thing to read after being with Mom. We cherish and love the time we still have with her especially when she knows who we are. She doesn’t remember a lot of things we use to do so I tell her about it and get her to laugh even though she doesn’t remember doing it. We all have the memories of our good times with Mom even thought she doesn’t. I am always inspired and touched by your writings when I red them. I thank you for for making me really appreciate what is important in life. Love to all.

  20. Susan on February 24, 2012 at 3:39 pm

    This is BEAUTIFUL. And, as often happens, the right and perfect words for me to read today. Thank you. xoxo

  21. Sue on February 24, 2012 at 5:45 pm

    Jennifer,
    What lovely words, you have touched my heart.

  22. Karen Stout on February 24, 2012 at 8:30 pm

    Jennifer, there are no words for how this spoke to me. Beautiful, loving words for my heart from yours. I feel your words and they soothed that part of my heart that needs touching today. Thank you for your lovely words.

  23. Liv on February 24, 2012 at 10:20 pm

    Seriously. Seriously? I don’t know how you do this, time after time, pouring out a waterfall of words that go deep and then rise to the surface, pooling together in the most meaningful way. You are magic. And your heart is effing beautiful.

  24. Liv on February 24, 2012 at 10:20 pm

    Seriously. Seriously? I don’t know how you do this, time after time, pouring out a waterfall of words that go deep and then rise to the surface, pooling together in the most meaningful way. You are magic. And your heart is effing beautiful.

  25. Kirsten on February 25, 2012 at 12:29 am

    BEEE-YOU-TEE-FULLLLLL!!!
    Speechless.

  26. Liz on February 25, 2012 at 2:19 am

    “stretch out, free and easy……” …thanks for this exhale tonight, Jen….I helped myself to it, I hope you dont mind…..I tend to live so tight and tense when it comes to me and mine, happy to heap shame on myself at a moment’s notice, sure that if I dont clobber myself, I’ll get clobbered…..

    “stretch out, free and easy……” …..do I dare? Yep, I’ve decided, I *do*. Life is too damn short to be waiting till the end of it to exhale…..I’m done with that. or, at least, I want to be. Maybe you could throw a little freedom prayer my way….

    much love m’friend….
    Liz

  27. JillsyGirl Studio on February 25, 2012 at 10:24 am

    you have a special talent to evoke emotion with your words!

  28. elk on February 25, 2012 at 12:03 pm

    thank you from the bottom of my somewhat lumpy heart 🙂

    your writing takes my breath away~xo

  29. janet on February 25, 2012 at 1:25 pm

    LOOOVE your dear, dear to me heart!

  30. S. Etole on February 25, 2012 at 6:31 pm

    Your heart pumps beauty in ever so many ways. A true love-affair!

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  33. Marion on February 26, 2012 at 12:52 pm

    And I am “fiercely grateful” for your beautiful heart. Grateful for the way it fills you up with joy and sadness, with hope and fear, and gratitude, always gratitude. I am grateful for the beautiful way you share it here, filling our imperfect hearts with hope and goodness.

  34. annie! on February 26, 2012 at 1:07 pm

    You’re a girl after MY own heart!

  35. Relyn on February 26, 2012 at 7:07 pm

    Your words quite often make me shiver.

  36. Jen Zimmerman on February 27, 2012 at 7:48 am

    You brought me to tears – especially the part about your heart being too far out on your sleeve. I adore you.

  37. kathryn on February 27, 2012 at 2:10 pm

    wouldn’t all of us be so much better off if we were grateful for ourselves?!!!

  38. Lee Ann on February 28, 2012 at 9:52 pm

    You sure are BEAUTIFUL Jen!!!!!! So happy you are embracing the beautiful and real YOU that God made so very unique and special. I am doing a tap dance for you right now and ending the dance with a slide of joy across the floor!!! Celebrating with you! ♥

    ♥Lee Ann (I finally got a new post up after a whole month..Pretty please…come and see me)

  39. eydie on March 1, 2012 at 6:48 pm

    I love “~especially that part of you I’ve draped over the line
    suspended in time dangling and exposed like the rows of diapers I used to hang”, and I’m so happy you see you heart “through some clearly different eyes.”

    From my heart to your big beautiful heart.
    xoxo

  40. JBR on March 2, 2012 at 6:10 am

    ((((Jen))))

  41. LindyLouMac in Italy on March 2, 2012 at 12:03 pm

    I am so grateful for the beauty of Spring and your lovely writing.

  42. Susie on March 3, 2012 at 11:13 am

    Hello ♥Jennifer,
    I think you and your heart are beautiful and precious.Thank you♥
    Thought you might like the following that are some favourite lines of mine – not sure who the author is –
    “Do I love myself enough to see myself with the eyes of my heart?
    Do I love myself enough to listen to myself with the ears of my heart?
    Do I love myself enough to talk to myself with the voice of my heart?
    Do I love myself enough to know myself with my heart?……”
    Have a splendid day….LOVE, Susie♥

  43. Nupur on March 10, 2012 at 11:23 pm

    Jennifer; Hi, this is Nupur from BBTL:0
    I just loved every single word you wrote! And I love this song and lyrics. I could relate with everything so well. And enjoyed the vivid art. Gardening is my passion. In fact, I am in the process of redesigning my small terrace garden as I stay in an apartment.
    I will drop here whenever I can and enjoy the words and colours. Keep writing

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