Heartcries and wings….

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This old year
has been poured over and devoured
like a well worn book,
now lovingly bent
and floppy.
It’s been sweet
and hard
and even harsh at times,
but always
always
beautiful
and I’m grateful
for the ride.Now, peering onto the delicious blank pages
of a crisp new year
I sense warm winds blowing
and they seem to ask
“what do you want now?”

What do I want?

Well, I’m fairly polished at making lemonade
out of lemons.
I’ve honed this skill.
I can do lemonade
….gourmet, even.

And I’m pretty easily discouraged
into “well, whateverGod has for me.”
I know….it’s a cop-out.
Poison in a choir robe.
But it’s a default setting I slide towards
when I’m disappointed.

Now here I stand in front of a shiny new beginning
with Love boldly whispering,
“what if you lose the fear of being ashamed,
of coming up short?

Forget about what’s happened.
Don’t keep going over old history.
Be present.
Something new is happening.
It’s bursting out….don’t you see it?

There it is
a road in the desert,
rivers in the badlands.
And so I ask you
what is it
that you want?”

And all that I can manage to respond
is
“change”.

“What would that look like?
Really….what do you want to see splashed across these pages
a year from now?”

(Heavy sigh)

It’s time to splash my face
with the longings and heartcries in the deep pools of my heart,
the cold, still waters
that flow from the truest parts of me
until I’m alert and awake and alive
to the dreams I haven’t dared to dream
for a while.

(Deep breath)

My word for the year: wings.

 

Comments

  1. what a promising word …

    may your hopes fly
    swiftly
    to His
    heart

    Blessings for the new year

  2. ….oh my dearest Jen……my beautiful kindred spirit friend……..my heart is singing…..I laughed with utter joy, out loud, as I read that last word…….

    *WINGS*

    ….my darling friend, looking forward to soaring into dreams come true with you this year…..

    Blessing you with all my heart,
    Elizabeth

  3. sounds like the perfect lead to your book. You know what I'm going to say don't you, there's a book in you crying to come out. I see it's pieces spread across your blog, dips of inspiration, understanding and pure refreshing. I pray this year brings all that you need to chase down dreams…

  4. Just Be Real says

    Encouraging! A promise of good things. Blessings to you Jen for a great and wonderful New Year!

  5. rachel awes says

    i looooooove your
    peace be the journey
    art!!! looove it!
    & oh jennifer,
    warm winds…
    so inviting…
    & WINGS!
    you took my breath away!
    yesssssssss to you!
    i can hear them
    whooshing!
    xoxox

  6. I like the image of rivers in the badlands where change and vibrant life are possible.

  7. Yes!

  8. i love WINGS…..it is SO YOU!!!
    i just bought a card that says something about leaping and growing your wings on the way down….love that !
    thanks for sharing !!

  9. Wings…..yes I can see them now……taking you across many and varied paths during the next year…..Soaring…girlfriend you are getting ready to soar and I know the Father is so excited that you are willing to take His gift and let Him show you His path for you……Sounds like an adventure to me……

    Happy New Year my friend…..Your words are a blessing and your spirit an encouragement to me……I'm glad we have crossed paths…

    Hugs and more hugs

  10. Sharon Leaf says

    Wings for you, my dear flying angel!

  11. Beautiful poem, and beautiful painting! I love the colors and brush textures!

  12. Erin Butson says

    Oh Jennifer, you are a gift to us. thank you for sharing your heart in a way that only you can, in a voice that is uniquely yours. Your words touch & inspire us. here's to wings in your new year.xoxoxo

  13. ha…whatever God wants…poison in a choir robe…this so got to me. because yes, we want what God wants, but…do we dare look deeper…God places desires in our hearts, they may need to be tweeked by him, because sometimes we are off kilter but we don't take that step off the cliff we will stay where we are.

    as I read your posts I keep asking myself why they speak so clearly, I think it's because your words are more than words, they form pictures and those penetrate my heart more than just mere words do. What a gift God has given you my friend. I am so excited to see how God answers your prayer.

    Grace and peace

  14. wings- i do love that word.
    ; )

  15. Your word is perfection. And this: the truest parts of me
    until I'm alert and awake and alive
    to the dreams I haven't dared to dream
    for a while.
    , I would guess that you already do this. This place certainly feels like that to me.

  16. Such a thoughtful post, Jennifer. I've been lucky to have spent much of this week outdoors, and have thought of you. I saw five deer today and 4 wild turkeys. Was lucky to catch a sighting of a bald eagle yesterday. I like to think of these as good luck omens for the coming year.

  17. wings … and away you fly!

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