Starlings and snippets…

water and grassI scooped only a few hours
of weekend
into my bowl yesterday.
It was a generous portion
for October,
the yearly super bowl
for our gardening business.
(And the one month that makes
gentle January-by-the-fire
seem fair).To complicate matters,
my hubby is gimpy with a blown knee
and limping through the season
until he gets a brand spanking new one in mid-November.

And so it feels as if someone has dropped some
extra heavy stones in my backpack.

Today I set the backpack down on a hillside picnic table
and spent a few golden hours
watching horses quietly grazing and basked with them
in the late afternoon sun.

I breathed in deeply that smell
~like a freshly opened bag of potting soil.
And wondered…..fretted actually….over hanging a
“Closed for October” sign on my blog
because I don’t want to post stuff
that’s as mumsy and tired as I feel.

As I rolled this idea around in my head,
I watched a flock of starlings swarming and swooping,
scattering and swirling like confetti on a breezy current,
and my heart began to lift and lilt
with their dipping and diving.

I thought how life is fluid like that
~it’s a dance; the beauty is in the movement,
not in pretty still-life perfection,
and how there is something unnatural about
the idealism I’m struggling with
….something fake (ouch!)

And so I’m tossing the “closed” sign
and opening wide.
I’ll slice from my busyness
the slivers as they come
and write the snippets down
and let them be what they are
and see if the wind just may stir them to a dance of their own.

Comments

  1. rachel awes says

    the wind is
    already
    stirring them,
    tender friend,
    & i sit beside you,
    in the few goldens,
    & place my hand
    on your
    stone-carrying
    shoulders,
    & send
    healing
    from
    the
    height of stars
    & depth of dolphins.
    confetti love, xox.

  2. so glad you are tossing that closed sign!!
    you would be missed greatly!!
    may you find moments of rest and refreshment in the midst of all the busyness.

    blessings and hugs!

  3. Hey Girl…

    went for a run today and my legs felt like lead…heavy like the rocks in your backpack…

    maybe we can limp along together a bit…maybe good to share…sometimes life is confetti and sometimes it's concrete…there's both I guess…

    …the thought occurs to me, no one ever built anything with confetti, but it sure does make for a festive celebration once the stonework is done……

    praying the Stone Mason will make haste with this work….that this phase of his work in you will be done soon…..(me too…right there with ya)

    lookin forward with ya to confetti-days, Girlfriend…

  4. your snippets are a treat in themselves … so glad you tossed the sign

  5. Just Be Real says

    Here with you Jen listening. Thank you for all your encouragement. Hopefully, I can be just as equally encouraging to you.

  6. Oh I would miss you sooooo much if you closed for too long Jennifer, but I so understand the feeling of needing to now and then. I haven't been able to post as often over the past few weeks mainly due to weariness from job loss etc.. and the changes that come with it. Sometimes your brain just needs a rest. Whatever you need to do just know that I would watch and check in often to see if my friend posted, You could never be forgotten because you are unforgettable and so is your beautiful writing that inspires so many emotions.

    Rest when you need to but know just being real is good enough for us. Even just one real word is enough from our special Jennifer.

    ♥ Lee Ann

  7. Oh I would miss you sooooo much if you closed for too long Jennifer, but I so understand the feeling of needing to now and then. I haven't been able to post as often over the past few weeks mainly due to weariness from job loss etc.. and the changes that come with it. Sometimes your brain just needs a rest. Whatever you need to do just know that I would watch and check in often to see if my friend posted, You could never be forgotten because you are unforgettable and so is your beautiful writing that inspires so many emotions.

    Rest when you need to but know just being real is good enough for us. Even just one real word is enough from our special Jennifer.

    ♥ Lee Ann

  8. Now that's just scary, to think you might have lost you for a time from blogger land! What feels like snippets to you are treasures to your readers. We value your voice, your presence however and whenever you can offer it. Be well my friend and carry your family through this season.

  9. Cindy Long says

    Wow…honesty…a beautiful sight to behold! So glad that your snippets didn't get snipped and discarded…and that you let the beauty of your journey be revealed for what it is…the dance of life!

  10. your writing just delights my soul. it makes me read it again and again to get every morsel and then review it once again, like licking your fingers after a delicious gourmet meal for the last beautiful taste of goodness.
    I hope you don't think me silly because it makes me want to be a better writer too!

  11. PaperPumpkin says

    Isn't it nice that we can just be ourselves? You are welcome even IF you may feel tired and whatever else. So happy you didn't hang the Closed sign, Jennifer! I have thought about the same thing lately, for I am struggling…but I am here if you are!! ♥Kathy

  12. Jennifer Griffin-Wiesner says

    Beautiful.

  13. Laura~DancesWithTeddyBears says

    Some snippets blew my way, I followed them
    and found you.

  14. Oh my friend. Your words always dance. Always.

  15. You words are water to our thirsty souls and food for the journey……Please know that I will help you with your load by lifting you up each day so look for those miracles small or large that are about to happen to provide all you need for the days ahead…..

    So glad you tossed the sign; what would we do without you…Thanks so much for your comments you leave me; you will never know how much they encourage me…..

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