Balking at bullies….

owl eyesI just walked away from a bully
and his pile of money.It was sparkly, this treasure
piled up high
~a whole trunkfull of nuts and acorns
for the winter months to come
~seductive and shimmery.
I’m sad to say
I followed it for a while
instead of my jilted heart.

But in the end……..I walked.
I never turned the last trick.

I wish I’d been braver
that I’d befriended myself sooner
and been more articulate
and smarter
and stronger
in the confrontations.
…that I’d been less nervous
and hadn’t talked too much
with a voice that never stopped shaking
and worried that I’d hurt the bully’s feelings
and played a fool.

But in the end, I did walk away from a bully
and his pile of money
and every step I took towards freedom
seemed to carve more deeply into my soul
“NOT for sale”
…………….and I think it may be
the closest thing to poetry
I’ve ever done.

 

Comments

  1. My God, Jennifer….THIS is The Word I needed tonight….you've articulated what I was feeling so profoundly today….Now for the courage to walk it out……to fly…….

  2. Brave girl, that had to have been a hard one, and shaky or not, you got it done and got your battered self out of there. May God bless you in unexpected ways and places for sure an act of grace towards yourself. He's smiling at his big, little girl 🙂

  3. rachel awes says

    oh yes..when we shake are
    such important moments..
    & it is never too late
    to grow into your strength,
    which has no timeline limitations…
    your process is clearly
    only leading you
    ever so deeply
    into being
    the poem
    who
    you
    are.
    xo

  4. PaperPumpkin says

    Love to you, Jennifer. This is so beautiful.
    Always, Kathy

  5. and a beautiful poem was created
    by
    a decision
    well
    made

  6. Bravo!

  7. Sharron Leaf says

    The once jaded jennifer is now
    the gutsy gal I'm getting to know
    better with each post.
    Oh, to learn these lessons early in life,
    how much easier our path would be.
    better late than never I tell my sixty-four self.
    and P.S…I hope that wealthy bully reads this!

  8. Just Be Real says

    Dear Jen, what a powerful post that hit me deeply Thank you for your insight into many things the Lord is revealing to you. Blessings.

  9. Isn't it amazing how God brings souls together to comfort and encourage each other….If I could I would hug you tight and tell you what a brave woman you are…..I am praying for you as I type……

  10. V-I-C-T-O-R-Y YAY to my Brave friend Jennifer!
    V-I-C-T-O-R-Y victory is her battle cry! YAY!!!!
    So proud of you girlfriend!

    I've been shaking in the past, right where you've been and I fully understand how hard it is to be brave in these situations where there are bullies, especially those who write the pay checks. Believe me, you my dear very talented and gifted woman, you have so many special and wonderful things ahead to look forward to. You just opened up another opportunity for God to bless you in ways you cannot imagine. Can't wait to hear about what blooms in you next!

    ♥Lee Ann

  11. V-I-C-T-O-R-Y YAY to my Brave friend Jennifer!
    V-I-C-T-O-R-Y victory is her battle cry! YAY!!!!
    So proud of you girlfriend!

    I've been shaking in the past, right where you've been and I fully understand how hard it is to be brave in these situations where there are bullies, especially those who write the pay checks. Believe me, you my dear very talented and gifted woman, you have so many special and wonderful things ahead to look forward to. You just opened up another opportunity for God to bless you in ways you cannot imagine. Can't wait to hear about what blooms in you next!

    ♥Lee Ann

  12. Your last two lines make me shout BRAVO!

    Bravo, my brave, true friend.

  13. Sherry Thrasher says

    You may be reading my mail here. Well said and well done!

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