Windy, weak and wonderful….

helpless is beautifulStrong winds are turning up the undersides of the leaves in my life; I can smell the coming storm. I’m learning to love the delicious danger

of being small in the path of extraordinary power……like swimming alongside a behemoth fish that may swipe it’s tail and finish me because it’s huge and I’m helpless in contrast.
Dread would swallow me if I didn’t let go, releasing myself to the sweet shelter of One powerful enough to level but so fiercely FOR me that I’m protected, tucked in under His massive form looming overhead. Shadowed by Love, I can trust this mighty heart.
But can I manage Him? Um, decidedly no. These waters we travel are not theme park safe; the danger is real. C.S. Lewis wrote, “Then he isn’t safe? Safe? Who said anything about safe?
‘Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good.”
Listening to the storm rumbling closer and feeling drops of change pelting my face as I turn into the wind, I let my weakness be what it is and refuse to steel myself against it….quit grasping for control. Going palms up, billowy breezes lift the arms of my soul high into the air and twirl me like a much-cherished daughter secure in her daddy’s firm grip. I’m willing to risk myself to love like this and so, head back, I ride these winds of change like dry leaves in a hurricane.
Even if the landscape of my life is completely altered, it’s going to be okay. Safe? That’s a hopeful wait and see. But good……definitely.


  1. Bren on June 13, 2010 at 3:49 pm

    Such powerful words and imagery, there is little to be said but amen!

  2. S. Etole on June 13, 2010 at 4:25 pm

    The trust of a daughter for her beloved Father …

  3. Mary on June 13, 2010 at 6:38 pm

    I am so touched by your faith, strength/weakness, abandon, love for and into our Abba!! I am blessed each and every time I visit you.


  4. rachel awes on June 13, 2010 at 8:34 pm

    thank you for sharing the good along the leafy underside. i'm right there with you. xo

  5. LeeAnn on June 14, 2010 at 4:07 pm

    The landscape of your life may look different after the storm, but what new and beautiful scenery will emerge from the debris with special surprises that will exceed your expectations and joy! Keep on keepin on my friend! I can't wait to see your reward after the storm.

    Lee Ann

  6. Sharron Leaf on June 15, 2010 at 1:40 am

    Rachel, please don't use my name in vein (Leaf..leafy…get it? 🙂 Jen, your words are touching and freeing! Thank you!

  7. Hindsfeet on June 15, 2010 at 3:11 am

    Wow…Jennifer….Wow…..I hadn't read this before I wrote "Beacon" this morning….I'm floored at how it answers the heartcry in my post…

    …so grateful for such a timely meeting…and for your "breath of fresh air" perspective…thanks for sharing so transparently…..what a gift.

  8. Patti on June 15, 2010 at 11:48 pm

    I'm so glad I discovered your blog. I'm always inspired by the way you express yourself. Beautiful!

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