Yesterday I released my daughter
with all of my quivery heart to fly far
and free…..and away.
Months of preparation rolled onto the shore, breaking and soaking me to the soul. The goodbyes and leaving rained down hard like a downpour. As I write this, she is traveling across country to set up her home on a new coastline. I feel the turning of pages….the closing of a chapter….with every fluttery wobble of my heart.
Putting down the chocolate, I’ve decided to embrace the season….tasting every part and letting the juice dribble down my chin and stain me with it’s ripe, sweet sadness.
I don’t want to numb this…..opening instead to every drop of grace that comes only when you stand in the rain. Not gonna rush this pain; I won’t risk missing the face of God in the breaking.
(Well, okay…..maybe just a little chocolate, too.)
Chocolate is helpful in almost any situation! And prayer … lots of prayer.
"I don't want to numb this…..opening instead to every drop of grace that comes only when you stand in the rain"
boy can you paint a picture, a heart with your words!!!
And the grace comes!!!! He comes!!
And yes, please oh please chocolate!!! 🙂
We spend so much time running away, trying to remove ourselves from the distress/pain we miss those moments that only come by staying present, trusting his grace. You've captured this so powerfully by sharing your heart with your words.
Watching our children 'launch' is always a double chocolate event!
Wow Jennifer, your words are beautiful. It's so easy to avoid rather than encounter. I admire your desire to 'feel' it all. Chocolate and prayers coming your way.
this art is GORGEOUS.
it speaks to my heart.
& i send love to wings
both hers AND yours.
a little chocolate
a few tears
a sore heart
a mother's great love