Born free…..

Yesterday I released my daughter
with all of my quivery heart to fly far
and free…..and sky

Months of preparation rolled onto the shore, breaking and soaking me to the soul. The goodbyes and leaving rained down hard like a downpour. As I write this, she is traveling across country to set up her home on a new coastline. I feel the turning of pages….the closing of a chapter….with every fluttery wobble of my heart.

Putting down the chocolate, I’ve decided to embrace the season….tasting every part and letting the juice dribble down my chin and stain me with it’s ripe, sweet sadness.

I don’t want to numb this…..opening instead to every drop of grace that comes only when you stand in the rain. Not gonna rush this pain; I won’t risk missing the face of God in the breaking.

(Well, okay…..maybe just a little chocolate, too.)


  1. S. Etole on June 10, 2010 at 2:29 am

    Chocolate is helpful in almost any situation! And prayer … lots of prayer.

  2. Mary on June 10, 2010 at 2:38 am

    "I don't want to numb this…..opening instead to every drop of grace that comes only when you stand in the rain"

    boy can you paint a picture, a heart with your words!!!

    And the grace comes!!!! He comes!!

    And yes, please oh please chocolate!!! 🙂

  3. Bren on June 10, 2010 at 11:31 am

    We spend so much time running away, trying to remove ourselves from the distress/pain we miss those moments that only come by staying present, trusting his grace. You've captured this so powerfully by sharing your heart with your words.
    Watching our children 'launch' is always a double chocolate event!

  4. Patti on June 11, 2010 at 5:09 pm

    Wow Jennifer, your words are beautiful. It's so easy to avoid rather than encounter. I admire your desire to 'feel' it all. Chocolate and prayers coming your way.

  5. rachel awes on June 12, 2010 at 3:21 pm

    this art is GORGEOUS.
    it speaks to my heart.
    & i send love to wings
    ~ ~
    both hers AND yours.

  6. Relyn on June 13, 2010 at 12:37 am

    a little chocolate
    a few tears
    a sore heart

    a mother's great love

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